2010

We are closing out the first decade of the new millennium & though most people call it a "New Year's Resolution", I just like to set goals for myself to accomplish throughout the upcoming year. This year, for real this time! I'm going to try my best to get over my fear of driving & finally learn how to drive. Whew... This is going to be a long hard road but I know I can conquer this fear! I'm about to turn 23 years old & I've come to the realization that knowing how to drive is a necessity. I really need it to get through my everyday life because it becomes more difficult for me to get certain things done not being able to get myself from one place to another.

My education is very important to me because I know that it's essential to have if I want to succeed in life. & even though I'm aware of this I really hate to study. This year I'm putting aside a set amount of time to myself for me to study everyday & as a result of hitting the books everyday I hope to make all A's & B's. Okay, I have another confession... A's & B's have never really been that important to me until recently. I would do just enough to get by & as long as I got a passing grade I was fine. Not anymore! I know I'm better than that, so I'm focusing all my energy towards these A's!

I definitely believe in God & I consider myself a very spiritual person but I find myself so busy sometimes that Sunday is the only day I have to rest & I skip out on church. This up coming year I plan to go to church more often, regardless of how tired I am. I recognize that I need to go to church & give thanks because I am so very blessed. In addition to going to church more frequently I want to read my Bible everyday, which shouldn't be a problem because I have the Bible on my iPhone & I want to pray more. I just really need to get more in touch with the ONE who makes everything in my life possible.

Being real & honest with myself & others was on my list for 2009 & it's on my list once again for 2010. I've been pretty successful with being real & I feel like it's most important for me to continue to be real with myself because we sometimes feed ourselves lies to put up with certain things or to make ourselves sleep better at night when we know we're doing something wrong. & I know I don't want to be lied to, so I like to be open an honest with everyone around me so there are no misunderstandings & no one is being mislead. Sometimes the truth hurts, but in my opinion lies hurt worse & I like to go by the saying everything you do in the dark will eventually come to the light.

Yes, I have another confession... I think maybe stating these goals for 2010 is making me reveal a little more about myself than I want people to know. LOL! But hey, I'm a work in progress. So, I consider myself to be a very solid, stable & strong indivdual(WOW! Three positive S's), but I'm a softy when it comes to those I love & I don't mean family & friends... I mean as far as my love life. I constantly find myself bending & compromising a lot to salvage relationships & that's so not happening in 2010. If you thought I was a Badd Bitch in '09, you're going to hate me in 2010! LOVE is my weakness, but I've got to stand my ground. I'm no longer a child, I'm a young adult & I have a future that I'm focusing on, so I don't have time for games. I'm going to be an all-around strong minded individual in 2010.

I've already spoke about not complaining about ish you can & cannot control in a previous blog, but it is on the list of 2010 goals. No complaining! If there's something you can do to change your current state, then do it! If not, what's the use in complaining? The last few things on my list for 2010 are to exercise frequently, which goes hand in hand with eating healthy. I really have to get it together because I eat a lot of unnecessary bull shit... for real! I'm going to try my best & cut back on the fast food & only pick one day out of the week to have it.

OMG! I'm about to really start stacking this cake. I've been doing well with saving my money, but anybody that knows me knows that I'm a shopaholic & I'm definitely no cheap bitch, so I've got to cut back. This means I've got to stay out of the mall because if I hit the mall it's a done deal. I live for shoes, clothes &  badd ass watches... Can you tell?! LOL! UGH! & this is like my last confession because I'm giving you all too much... Marquise is no chef, so I'm about to step my cooking game up for 2010! I just stated that I had a future to think about & I hope that includes a husband... Come on, I've got to be able to feed the man & myself. LOL! Last but not least I have to put ME first in everything I do & that concludes my goals for 2010.